AN INSPIRING WEEK IT IS :)

After a long time, finally I get the chance to write again. Practically speaking I am way doing well until someone came along and left something I can't explain in my heart and in my mind. Okay, so this "something" is a HE!!!! Yeah, you heard me. A guy who inspired me and motivated me in just a week. JUST a week. How cool is that??!! 

Anyways, I won't go writing all our conversations or go detailed but what I really wanted to say is that this guy is really awesome and amazing. We've known each other and saw each other last December (2012) when I went home for a vacation in my country. We didn't really talk to each other that time (his gf is my friend). Uughhh!! I'll go straight to the story... 

This month of November 2013 at the 10th day ('twas his birthday), started everything. I greeted him through Facebook and so he did reply. And that's it.... He has a problem though or which I can say he was in the state of moving on (you know what that means!!!). So we were like "do you have viber, wechat -- ok can i call, can you call" chat here and there. Talked about what happened (which I was so touched that he was so honest with me). We were like that for a week. His sweet, funny, had a good sense of humor and through the way he speaks to me is like "oh my gosh!! I just want to listen to his voice!! Haha!!" We were like super close, like we've known each other long time. He was open about stuffs. And who would have thought -- a guy who would volunteer his self to be the father of my son. No if's and but's. He was such a WONDERFUL person. 

But after a week, i just woke up and been thinking if that week was all a dream or will I face reality that fast without him. No more conversations for 5 days already. I don't know how and where to contact him though i tried giving messages to all communication ways he had but still I ended with nothing. Yes!! I missed him and I am missing him until now. I hope he's okay. 

I really don't know why I am feeling somehow depressed (little). I said to myself I won't expect anything -- no assurance and nothing at all. But here I am holding on to all that he said and to our plans to be. But I have to look forward. And this I said to myself : "I am resting my mind and heart for awhile. If he didn't come back until the 30th of November, I'm done. I'll set my spirit free. Stay happy and go on with my life like it's used to be, before he PASSED by." 

Just then, It turned out that my prince charming became a frog and disappeared :( 

           

           "RIGHT HERE WAITING"

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EXPERIENCE LIFE!!

   I have known want and struggle and anxiety and despair. I have always had work beyond the limits of my strength. As I look back upon my life, I see it as a battlefield strewn with the wrecks of dead dreams and broken hopes and shattered illusions -  a battle in which I always fought with the odds tremendously against me and which has left me scarred and bruised and maimed and old before my time.

   I have drunk the cup of life down to its very dregs. They have only sipped the bubbles on top of it. I know things they will never know. I see things to which they are blind.

   It is only the women whose eyes have been washed clear with tears who get the broad vision that makes them little sisters to all the world.

   I have learned from a philosophy that no woman who has an easy life ever acquires. I have learned to live each day as it comes and not to borrow trouble by dreaming the tomorrow. It is the dark menace of the future that makes cowards of us. I put that dread from me because experience has taught me that when the time comes that I so fear, the strength and wisdom to meet it will be given to me. Little annoyances no longer have the power to affect me. After you have seen your whole edifice of happiness topple and crash in ruins about you, it never matters to you again that a servant forgets to put the doilies under the finger bowls, or the cook spills the soup.

   I have learned not to expect too much of people, and so I can still get happiness out of the friend who isn't quite true to me or the acquaintance who gossips. Above all, I have acquired a sense of humor, because there were so many things over which I had either to cry or laugh. And when a woman can joke over her troubles instead of having hysterics, nothing can ever hurt her much again.

   I do not regret the hardships I have known, because through them I have touched life at every point I have lived. And it was worth the price I had to pay.




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